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Charly
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Hilo ^-^ iam Cicura Kikari! I'm 19, and love everything Japanese and anime related (full fledged otaku)
My favourite food is cheese and my favourite animals are ducks and cats <3
My one goal in life is : "To make people happy and smile and laugh"


I hope to get support and encouragement! I'm all for constructive criticism! So please! Criticize! I need to learn to get better at drawing so I can be as good as all you other deviants ;v;

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A person is not shy can not understand a person who is.

To call yourself "shy" and then say you just put on an act in front of others that you "aren't shy" is nonsense.

If you were truly shy, you couldn't put on any act. And if you're putting on an act in front of others that you are NOT shy, does that mean you can lose the act and BE SHY once you're by yourself? That's silly. When you're by yourself, you're not shy with yourself!

Are you shy?
Imagine someone calls you a sociopath (: "a person with a personality disorder manifesting itself in extreme antisocial attitudes and behavior and a lack of conscience.").

"Extreme antisocial attitudes and behavior" - when you're shy, you aren't going around greeting people and starting conversations of your own accord.

"A lack of conscience (: "is an aptitude, faculty, intuition or judgment that assists in distinguishing right from wrong.") - So when you don't get up to greet someone, or when someone says "how are you?" and you only reply with a "fine" and no inquiry as to how THEY are, you are apparently deemed with having no sense of what's right or wrong, like you're stupid. When really, you are just SHY.

Someone who is not shy can not understand what it's like to be shy.

Everyone can be nervous, uncertain, "shy" at times, but that doesn't make "them" as a whole, "shy". Anyone can feel uncomfortable having to present in front of a crowd, but a shy person will feel uncomfortable to a point of anxiety and feel a dreadful feeling inside.

Being shy is something that is beyond one's control. I can want to be not shy but I can't help the hesitation I feel inside. It's extremely uncomfortable.

I've thought countless times that if I could just wear a long blonde wig and clothes I wouldn't normally wear, I could go out and do anything just fine. That would suggest that I can't do things because I am me - I don't like me. And while you shouldn't care what others think, I can't help it.

I mean, I can say, "I don't care what others think" and in truth, I really don't care what people think in regards to certain things - even if it could hurt me, cuz I just tell myself their opinions don't matter (as that's all they are, opinions) and I'm fine. But .. Clearly, inside of me, whether I'd like to think so or not - a part of me really cares what people think of me, enough to make me hesitate. I don't like it ofc.

Oh well.

And I have OCD, I'm sure. So this wunnn tyyyymme at baaaand ca- wtf no. I started seeing a person to help me with OCD and when I told my parents, my Daddy just says "don't go telling people that or they'll think something's wrong with you." HA. And after reading an entire self-help book about how to overcome OCD and that a positive, encouraging family environment would help! That's what I had to work with. Well he's the same one that said "People say things about you" in regards to me wearing cat ears. And when I say "oh, really? What do they say?" He says "well you know... They think you've got mental problems." To which I hafta profusely disagree with a big smile, asking "Really? Who is 'they'? Who is 'THEY'?" Hint: it's him.

Woooooo. The stress that is evident in that text. Ok so nya. This is venting, really I guess. So there. My thoughts on shiiit. Nya. I just thought dumbshits and dumbfacks who could be so rude as to call a (let's say) " "clinically shy"(?) person a ducking sociopath, need to grasp a better understanding of what it means to have self confidence issues.

Because:

A person who is not shy can not understand a person who is.
"Well, you never know till you try, right? You should at least give him a chance."  The message appeared on screen. "Oh well.. I guess you're right ^^ okay, ty for the advice." Misty typed. "No problem." Ren replied.

The following day:
"Um. I was thinking and... I-I'll go out with you... i-if you want...." Misty said nervously.
"Really?" the boy said excitedly, "Yes!" Ian cheered. "Eheheh.." Misty felt nervous and shy. "I love you!' Ian hugged Misty suddenly. Misty felt extremely uncomfortable and anxious, " I..I.. Okay. Gotta go now, bye!" As she went to class.

Meanwhile:
Ren sighed. Misty didn't even know.
"You're too nice, you know." His friends told him, "you totally just gave her away." "She wasn't mine to give away." "Exactly! But she could've been!" "I would never give her away if she was mine." Ren replied. "Hoho, big talk from a guy who just let her get with someone else." Ren hung his head. "You're too nice for your own good, Ren." "She's happy so that's all that matters."

Later:
As Misty walked outside to the school parking lot, she passed Ren in the doorway. By now she'd heard mention that Ren apparently liked her too. She felt bad, she was entirely clueless.. She tried to say something to Ren but he seemed to be in a hurry and rolled off in his rollerblades, giving a smile as he waved. Misty thought to herself "Ah.. He's hurt. He's faking the smile for me...."

Nearly 2 and a half years passed until Ian and Misty broke up.

Misty was having a hard time dealing with it and needed an outlet, someone to talk to, she felt so stupid and embarrassed from everything that happened. One of the people she spoke to about it was Ren. Upon further discussion, Ren proposed a question, "What do you think of me?" "Hmm?" Misty didn't understand what he was getting at. "Well.. I'm going to be honest with you.. I still kinda like you." "Wh-what." "So I'm wondering what do you think of me?" "U-uh.. W-well pictures of you aren't really that flattering, you need to smile more. But you do have a picture of you smiling in a striped sweater and you look super cute and happy when you smile />/v/</;;;" "Oho, really?"

.  .  .  .  .

"I'm glad I didn't get together with you then, though."
"Really? Why's that?"
"Because I was stupid then and I feel like if I had been with you at the time in my life, it would have ended too."

'If only I had made the right choice.'

Misty smiled at Ren, "You make me happy though!" Ren smiled back, "That's good." "You make me feel very comfortable and I find it very easy to believe what you say.. So that's saying something." "I'm glad, that's a good thing." "And the way I feel with you and how you make me feel is so different from how I ever felt before that you make me question if I ever even experienced love before." "Oh?"
Misty hugged Ren, "I love you!" "I love you too," Ren smiled and hugged Misty tight.

"I care about you very much!" Misty said happily, "and I you." Ren replied. "Also, you're gorgeous!" Misty kyaa'd. "Lol, if you say so."
A person is not shy can not understand a person who is.

To call yourself "shy" and then say you just put on an act in front of others that you "aren't shy" is nonsense.

If you were truly shy, you couldn't put on any act. And if you're putting on an act in front of others that you are NOT shy, does that mean you can lose the act and BE SHY once you're by yourself? That's silly. When you're by yourself, you're not shy with yourself!

Are you shy?
Imagine someone calls you a sociopath (: "a person with a personality disorder manifesting itself in extreme antisocial attitudes and behavior and a lack of conscience.").

"Extreme antisocial attitudes and behavior" - when you're shy, you aren't going around greeting people and starting conversations of your own accord.

"A lack of conscience (: "is an aptitude, faculty, intuition or judgment that assists in distinguishing right from wrong.") - So when you don't get up to greet someone, or when someone says "how are you?" and you only reply with a "fine" and no inquiry as to how THEY are, you are apparently deemed with having no sense of what's right or wrong, like you're stupid. When really, you are just SHY.

Someone who is not shy can not understand what it's like to be shy.

Everyone can be nervous, uncertain, "shy" at times, but that doesn't make "them" as a whole, "shy". Anyone can feel uncomfortable having to present in front of a crowd, but a shy person will feel uncomfortable to a point of anxiety and feel a dreadful feeling inside.

Being shy is something that is beyond one's control. I can want to be not shy but I can't help the hesitation I feel inside. It's extremely uncomfortable.

I've thought countless times that if I could just wear a long blonde wig and clothes I wouldn't normally wear, I could go out and do anything just fine. That would suggest that I can't do things because I am me - I don't like me. And while you shouldn't care what others think, I can't help it.

I mean, I can say, "I don't care what others think" and in truth, I really don't care what people think in regards to certain things - even if it could hurt me, cuz I just tell myself their opinions don't matter (as that's all they are, opinions) and I'm fine. But .. Clearly, inside of me, whether I'd like to think so or not - a part of me really cares what people think of me, enough to make me hesitate. I don't like it ofc.

Oh well.

And I have OCD, I'm sure. So this wunnn tyyyymme at baaaand ca- wtf no. I started seeing a person to help me with OCD and when I told my parents, my Daddy just says "don't go telling people that or they'll think something's wrong with you." HA. And after reading an entire self-help book about how to overcome OCD and that a positive, encouraging family environment would help! That's what I had to work with. Well he's the same one that said "People say things about you" in regards to me wearing cat ears. And when I say "oh, really? What do they say?" He says "well you know... They think you've got mental problems." To which I hafta profusely disagree with a big smile, asking "Really? Who is 'they'? Who is 'THEY'?" Hint: it's him.

Woooooo. The stress that is evident in that text. Ok so nya. This is venting, really I guess. So there. My thoughts on shiiit. Nya. I just thought dumbshits and dumbfacks who could be so rude as to call a (let's say) " "clinically shy"(?) person a ducking sociopath, need to grasp a better understanding of what it means to have self confidence issues.

Because:

A person who is not shy can not understand a person who is.

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jennystokes Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Professional General Artist
Hello Charly...............thank you so much for the watch.
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thank you a lot for faving!! Nuu Huggle! 
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Kawaragi-Shuran Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you so mutch the :+fav:
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Kawaragi-Shuran Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you so mutch the watch
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Thanks for the +Watch! :highfive:
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Happy Bday to you by KmyGraphic  5 In 1 Hearts -FreeToUse by Undead-Academy  Heart2Heart -Free 2 Use by Undead-Academy  
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Thankies for the fav :iconeweplz:
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Thank you for the fav! :D
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Thanks for the faves! :la:
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Thank you very much for faving A Kiss Hello, A Kiss Goodbye by JulijanaM ! :) I appreciate a lot your support Charly! :) :hug:
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